...the Journey...

A day Of Quiteness

OK...so...a day of silence is a thing that i was introduced to last year at Life Teams where we would be made to spend about 6 hours a month in silence. Ohh man it was soo hard. i always have some sorta nosie on in the background so it was really hard when we first started last year. I think that those days were great tho. A whole day spent in quiteness with Jesus, with no interuptions and no distractions. I love it. So i think that this will be an element that i will being to my everyday life. I would like to probly have it once a month as we did at Life Teams last year.
Well so let me share with you a bit of stuff from the day, like how i spent the time, what i focused on, and what i learnt/got out of it. I started out my day with breakfest and then sat down and read Utmost for His HIghest. I really like this book/devotional...it has a page a day of thoughts/insights. I like this book because although written long ago and used by many it speaks to me. today was about "The Vision and the Reality" It is neat beause i have been on this topic for a while Vision, purpose, and how. So this started the day off with a hit. I knew that it was God speaking to me and wanting to talk to me about this whole thing of why i am here in Ontario right now, cause i dont really understand. There are times when we do not know what God's purpose is;(Utmost For His Highest by oswald Chambers)...and some times we dont need to know or understand we just have to follow in faith. That is one thing that i guess kindda is a theme for my day. I then wrote for a bit about things that God has spoken to me about a vision for my future. I have alot of little things or parts of the story but i dont really know what it looks like yet. So I then spent some time listening to God about what he wants me to do with those things and he told me some more little things but no details. then he sent me over to Heb 11. (And to anyone who doesnt know what that is..it is a book in the bible and the number is the chapter of that smaller book inside the big book called the bible.) That chapter is all about Faith. All about it. I laughed when i opened to see what it was about. I was in awe. Ok so that is what i learnt. I need to continue to have faith, Because God is gunna have things happen. I had faith in going back to camp this summer even tho i didnt want to and God rewared me for it, I have been faithful in the small things so he is awarding me with Big things, And now i have been sent home although it isnt easy i will remain faithful to God because i know that God is always faithful. My day then went to Jesus and i hanging out together and him telling me to calm my heart and my thoughts that everything will be clear when he wants it to be and i need to be faithful and stay close to him, even in the "valley/hard" times.
God has taught me soo much on faith lately. Its been an ongoing theme since last winter. To trust, to hope and remain faithful throughout everything. I will never forget one thing Jen Werden/hubard said to me in about feb/march, when i was alittle edgie about my friend coming to see me and i didnt know how i felt about him, She told me that God would show me because i was seeking and that God is a Faithful God. He is nothing else. He will be faithful at all times faye. (not exact words but along those lines) Since then i can often times see us sitting in her car and loking over at me and saying to me with a smile on face, "Faye, dont worry God is faithful." It makes me kindda emotional even to think about it. Ya, really God is so faithful. He loves me and he has given me so much grace and all he wants is me to be in love with him. And I am.
God thank you for being faithful especially when i have walked away from you. You have always remained by my side though the rough and though the highlights. God i know no one who is as faithful as what you are. You are devoted to me and to making me more like your son. WOW. Thanks. I will be faithful and go where you want me to go, do what you want me to do and be who you want me to be, because i have faith in you and i trust you.
You are a God who looks out for me at all times even when i dont see it or understand it. You have a plan for me and vision and a purpose for me. All cause you love me and call me your child. Thanks.
So my day was good and well spent time with Jesus. I ened up going for a walk and just looking and marvaling at His works and how i am like one of those beautiful trees. I change and each time i do it is because of something Higher than me changing me and allowing me to be beautiful in each stage. Although i dont always see or show the beauty but God does.
So i encourage you to spend some time in silence without distractions or music and see where God will take you. May you be encouraged though what i learnt and what God said to me today. If you want to check out Life Teams, the program that challenged me to do this, and i am glad it did, then you check them out at www.lifeteams.ca.

posted by Sojourner @ 2:38 PM