...the Journey...

day by day..

So as i journey i realize that there is way too much out there and i am not grabing aholed of it. I have been just carrying on as if i am forty something. Forgetting that it is now in my life where i can have fun and work in wild places and be outside and jumpoing and running. NOT working indoors and doing no thing. I am wanting to get out of the ymca and work somewhere else and be outside.as summer approches i realize that i cant be working at the YMCA all the time that i need to get out and be free or freer than i have been. I want to work somewhere where i am using my hands and being active. So i am appling at a couple of landscaping places and maybe at some camps around the city. but i need to be close cause of Youth Church. Otherwise i might just go out to BC and work there. I also ahve a chance at working in northren ONtario but if that happens then where is YC? i dunno...its hard to figure out right now and this on top of everything else....is too much for me right now. But i think i am going to move in with Jackie posibly but if i dont have a summer job then i am screwed. i will not be able to pay rent. bummer. for sure. so i dunno what to do. God help.
things with Dave are rough right now and i dunnoo it seems to not be a good thing..i dunno. I am sad and feeling things i dont know how to describe towards the hole situation.
When life adds up you just have to presiver on with it and press on towards something that is much better the prize in which God has layed out for me. Even tho i cant really see it sometimes buti go towards it anywase.
Pray!

posted by Sojourner @ 8:31 AM