...the Journey...

the pains of...the Journey...

Ahh soo this is whats up…wow so I just got off the phone with my friend and he told me about what he was concerned about between me and another friend. Now I am all like thining about it and all concerned. I am upset because I know that I will probly be the one brining this up but I don’t want to. But yet if he is upset with me than I want to talk to him about it. I guess it just angers me cause I also know that he will say it is all my fault or make me feel that way. But it isn’t it was something he said to me. And ya I shouldn’t have reacted with the whole well you don’t know what you are talking about..kindda thing but his words hurt me when I was in a hurtful time already…..who steals a jacket from a person on a cold winters day…or who kicks a person when they are down,….ohh I dunno I guess I am just kinnda mad. But I don’t want to be. This friend and I use to be the best of friends
Then we went off to colleges and he gpt a girl and we don’t really talk much now. I still want to be his friend and I will always accept him with open arms but….this time it seems to hurt more cause I feel like I am crappy or that he just doesn’t want my friendship…and do I still continue to put love and hope into our friendship ya…I try at least. I dunno it just saddens me….my heart feels heavy and hurt…I cry because I don’t know what else to do….looseing a good friend I guess is never easy and I have always said that we would still be good friends but I guess it almost seems like reality just hit me…that he doesn’t want me as a friend. I hurt. Please
Help me.

posted by Sojourner @ 2:54 PM