i cant see
I dont understand what God is doing.
I thought i had a job all lined up. the guy told me to call him this week and so i did and he sure gave my position to another person. What!! i am soo odded. i dont understand he told me i had the position and then he gave it away. WHO DOES THAT!? So now i am still just working part time and geting paid servers wage which is nothing and i cant pay fro rent probably. I dunno. I know God is taking care of me but i just dont understand or see the purpose of this. God has a plan i know he does. its like i said yesterday GOd can see the hole picture and i cant really see much of the picture at all. I am just sad, upset and tear-ie. I dunno what to do. i say to myself be stong in God because He is the all mighty banker and He will take care of me. Pray please.
...the Journey...
Our God is an amazing man.
He has made himself such a mystery but yet we can know who he is but just not always know how or why he does the things he does. God Amazes me because he does things all at the perfect timing and yet He does things and we dont understand at the beginging but we can see or understand it later. A friend said to me last year its like looking at a piece of paper. If we poke a pin hole in it and look though it we cant see very much on the other side. But God on the other hand can see all sides of the paper and all angles to the other side. Basically God can see the big picture and we can only see what we have been given. I have to remind myself that God is a God who runs things fromt he future. He is an Omnipresance God. He can be everywhere all at the same time. He can see our future plans and choices and He runs my life from that. ITs totally hard and not real for me to understand but I love it! GOD is an amazing GOD. HUGE AND UNPRODICTABLE. Its Aweing.
...the Journey...
Well i am getting settled into my new place still. my roommate is painting her room so she has all her stuff out in the living room. its a crazy house right now. But in other news i have had many job opps and am currently working at a bakery and a coffee shop. But today i got offered a landsacpinmg type job soo i dunno i might take it i hvaent decided.
ya. Umm God and i are in a mode where i am learning tons and he is teaching tons. I am leaning so much about me. whooo whooo!! like how i am such an administrative person and i didnt really know it before. but i like it soo i thought hey thats a good thing...and God is teaching me very practical things. I like it God and i are on a good but rough/hard path right now.
Umm...not much else tooo new... I road in a limo with ryan this past weekend. OH my soo fun! first time. and went to a really fancy restrant. It was awsome. I loved it. I felt like a princess. Who would have thought that!
anywase, rys here i gtg later.
ohh ya if you need my new addy then post a comment and i will send it to you along with my new #.
