Giggles like a little gurl
I giggle and i smile from ear to ear. I laugh at everything and i cant really wipe a smile off my face. I am flattered and feel like a true little gurl when she meets a boy who she likes. I cant help but get excited when i speak about him and i certainly cant help that my cheeks go a nice rosie red when i get teased about him. Besides the fact that we dont cheer for the same hockey team we are pretty much a good match. And all this stems from us hanging out for the first time by ourselves today. He came over and we watched a movie or tried to but we chatted all though it. We cant seem to not talk, good thing. He has two pins in his wrist and a scar across his wrist. When he smiles his cheeks rise up and make his eyes sparkle. Its cute. Anywase, We like eachother and we talked about that today and we are to have another date prob some time this week. I dunno what to say we are not boyfriend and girlfriend but i would say that we are dating or hanging out together, alone. Its funny because i told God that i didnt want to Date anyone for a while and i thought that 30 would be a good age to start again but i guess God has different plans. So pray for us as we search for what God would like us to do. And as we pray i will smile and giggle from ear to ear and be a little school girl. Smiles.
The chronicals of Fayes nite..
Smiles. Smiles and more smiles.
Well my nite started off with a good friend rodney and i driving in his car chatting and to be honest that hasnt happened in a while and i was soo lacking and missing it. I am soo glad it happened. just the two of us. We always have such good and interesting convos but for some reason they only really happen when we are driving and not really anywhere else. Oh well at least they happen. He makes me smile and laugh and apperently i laugh funny. i love that boy emencly and i am so blessed to know him. Thanks be to God for such a great friend. Then we parted and went our seperate ways.
So i went out with my friend shaun from the pool. It was fun our friend Jess was having a party so we went. I loved her party although it was alot of old ppl from high school but there was this guy who i meant who is so splended! We chated basically the whole time i was there and b4 i left i gave him my number and e-mail. Ha its weird cause i dont usually do that or promte the whole pick gurls up thing...but it was good to meet him. I left with his contact and went to another persons house where we were for a bit and chatted. then i came home at around 1ish. And of course, signed on to MSN were i was already added to this guys List and then of cousre he was online and we chatted for a while till like 2. Then we both got offcause we work in the mornings and then i chatted with my friend tamar because she is going thourgh a difictult time right now. Make sure you pray for her regardless if you know her God does so it doesnt really matter> anywase, i had alot of fun last nite sleep deprived but fun and very much being a gurl last nite. ha h ah
SMILES SMILES AND MORE SMILES>
...the Journey...
OK so its Christmas time so the family is over. Oh my thats fun my sister is now engaged and to be wed in 2007. whoot whoot and i am the maid of honour...wow crazy@! But in other news my dad really wanted to watch a movie with all of us soo tonite seems to be the nite and ohh my way to much for me. He wanted to watch "40 year old virgin" I was quite unsure about it all. But i thought i would try out some of it and ohh no i walked out of the room it is sick. I am sadened by our world that revolves around sex and that uses sex to sell and get the attention of anything. Its sad.
But in other news my holidays were good. I enjoyed them. I got a digital camera and juicer and some other things. But those two are the most exciing ones to me. I was soo excited to recive a juicer. It is soo neat. Who knew how good juice could be at home. Yummy. So our boxing day shopping was fun to as usual. The mall wasnt that packed and stuff but there wernt as many sales on i dont think well in some stores like garage with 4$ shirts. That was nuts.
anywase, i started work again on wednesday and that was ok. back to the boaringness of the pool whoot whoot! Oh well at least i get to see all the members again and hear how their holidays went. I enjoy them alot. thats the best part. Smiles.
well not to much else new. i will journal a seperate entry for my adventures last nite. but other wise i still got alot of family stuff b4 the 3rd but well thats the way it goes i guess.
snow and that slushie stuff
and here goes nothing. It is snowing like mad and there are white out everywhere outside of starttty but yet i still made it into work whooohhoooo..boo...i came in with my dad and i tell ya one day i will have a heart attack with his driving. it scares me soo much. Ah. Well alot of nothing tooo exciting has happened but i have been keeping busy and therfore not writing on here. I am tring not to be on the computer as much either b/c i find myself being on here way way way too much. On the other hand it is needed to keep my work stuff going. Well i should be off soon i will have to get back to work. My Birthday is on thursday whoot whoot...its tommroow. YA YA umm...also...i have a doctors appointment on friday and that shall be tough but hopefuly it gopes well. This will be the first time in ont that i ahve seen a gasolaigist and so he could have me do alot of tests and hurt me more. And my tummy has been hurting more anywase, but i thiknk that is just b/c of the appointment coming up that my tummy is feeling gross about it. Anywase, i should go back to work.....no one is really coming in today soo....i am basically here on my own in the poool for a while. So my break is done in 15 so i shoudl go chat and be back for the kids who come down.
oHH MY!
Crazy am I! I am feeling like i am going insane today. I wasnt up too too late but it was like 11-12 ish but today i feel like a slug and i have to work until 430 so 7am to 430 pm in a pool with nothing todo but just sit and star and think soo boaring. Well to add to all this the chlorine is reading off the charts which means that the pool has about 15ppm of chlorine in it. jIt is hard to explain what that means but that there is way way way too much CL in the pool enough that you feel slimy and your mounth tastes funny or has a slippery taste. It is distusting. Ewww i hate it. And i have to breath it in...EWW. Not good for me. Well lats just say i want to go home today because i am feeling alittle light headed and alittle sick to my stomach. ohh man and the day has still so much to come....its only 1130 AH! let me out of this jail cell.
oHH MY!
Crazy am I! I am feeling like i am going insane today. I wasnt up too too late but it was like 11-12 ish but today i feel like a slug and i have to work until 430 so 7am to 430 pm in a pool with nothing todo but just sit and star and think soo boaring. Well to add to all this the chlorine is reading off the charts which means that the pool has about 15ppm of chlorine in it. jIt is hard to explain what that means but that there is way way way too much CL in the pool enough that you feel slimy and your mounth tastes funny or has a slippery taste. It is distusting. Ewww i hate it. And i have to breath it in...EWW. Not good for me. Well lats just say i want to go home today because i am feeling alittle light headed and alittle sick to my stomach. ohh man and the day has still so much to come....its only 1130 AH! let me out of this jail cell.
...hard part of the Journey...
Pray for my family. It is a really rough time right now. Pray for me as i try to deal with it.
weekend experience
The weekend so far has been amazing. Rodney and Amanda have been busy this weekend so i have been hanging outw ith different people and i love that. As i have been talking about in past blogs there is this boy who i meant at work His name is actually Shaun. Well ya, we hung out on friday with his friends in this shop/garage type. It was an intresting nite because...it was a disco nite and to tell ya the truth i dont really like disco. But oh well . We danced, and they did other things that teenagers/young adults do in a hard stage of their lives. Shaun and i are soo odd together its weird. We are almost the same person but not. Seeing as i am a gurl and he is a boi. Anywase, so shaun and i have the same size plugs(ear peircings) and we were talking about how we have to go and get some jewllery together. I was thinking of going shopping anywase on saterday too i asked him if he wanted to come with me. So what turned into a 5 person trip and started out to be a simple trip with just a 2 ppl. Crazy. And to be honest i really only wanted three at the most but oh well all the more ppl to get to know and be able to share my life with them. So I got to meet shauns really good gurl friend named Megan and ohh man she is beautiful and soo amazingly fun. She also is just like Shaun and I. So after we shoped for a bit we went to McDonalds..eewww! Then came home. It was a crazy day i tell ya. When we were at home we all went over to the shop house again and it was ok, some good conversations and such. I got really sadened by this one guy who i use to hang out/know in highschool. He is almost 21 and he doesnt care about anyone or anything. He treats his friends like crap and he brags about getting super high and going in to work. I think that something mentally was not developed properly. I know that is harsh to say but seriously. I dunno....I cry for him because he longs for acceptance and real love but doesnt know where to get it and so he tries in this stuff that he does. To be honest i see it hurting him more then he thinks or he can realize and it doesnt ful fill him in no ways. Anywase, so part of my nite was watching sound of music with Trina. She is sweet. After this guy and i talked which went good he doesnt handle serious convo's very well and stuff but he does with me for some reason. Strange. But good. Then i left to go home. But i couldnt go home so i went back and had a convo with Shaun because i didnt feel to well at all. however, after we talked i felt alot better and i think that we became better friends. That conversation did wonders for me i dunno why but i feel like alot has been lifted off of me now..its stange. I think it was something that God wanted me to deal with and release me from. Then i drove home and couldnt sleep. But anywase, i need to go cause i need to be a church soon and i am there all day basically with the jr. high youth guys because we are having our chirstmas party. After that i come home where i will be baking short bread cookies and then seeing my friend Liz who i havent seen in a while and miss soo much. I am excited to see her soo much.
later dayz..
Blessed
In one simple word is how i can describe today. I am feeling thankful today. I am thankful for alot of things. Everything i have would not have been possible with out God regarless of what others say God made it possible. Thanks God for blessing me.
Another great blessing today was the boy from work calling me. We chatted for a bit and he made me laugh alot and once again be a gurl but it was funny. But here is a twist you wouldnt have seen coming in the story. Well my bestest friend Amanda, she is his God sister. Ohh my soo she knows him and every thing they even danced at a cousins wedding. oh my funny times. Well besides that we talked and such oh i enjoy speaking with him. And he asked me to go out with them and hang out tommrow. So i am totally stocked. But one bad thing is that i know that there will be alot of substances there and i need to be strong and not give up my morals. Ohh man cause that would be bad. So pray that as i go and hang out with him and some of our mutual friends tommrow that i will see Gods presence everywhere i go.
Anywase, if you are wondering why i am wrting alot lately it is because i made a commitment to myself that i will try to be doing more of the things i enjoy and writing on here or journaling is something i really enjoy. ha ha
Anywase, peace and thanks for the prayers.
boaring
Well today i tried to make my job fun. Which is very hard to do...but i made a scavenger hunt for the Lifeguards to do next week and at the end of the scavenger hunt there will be a plate of cookies. I am rather excited about this. I think it will be fun. There are no more lessons at nite so they will just be guarding so why not give them something to do. I follow the saying "do unto others as you would have them do unto you." Anywase, well nothing else really exciting today but i did teach aqua fit for the first time by myself today. It was fun i laugh at myself tho. but h well. Well i have dance soon and i am quite excited for that cause next week we have a mini recital. I am really excited for it. I love proforming...and speaking of dance i am hopeing to go to this conference and take lyrical dancing (which is dancing with the words.) Then hoopefully i will get a chance to preform somewhere at some point. that would be a life dream for me.
Well catch ya' on the flip'
...the fun.
So i went out with my friend from the pool tonite. we had lots of fun. HE is a great guy and i do enjoy spending time with him. I am friends with alot of the ppl who he hangs out with which is funny. He was like "wow you know everyone" I laughed. But a highlite of the nite was that he said that i look pretty. I was like....ohh yaa....ha ha. He makes me become more of a gurl thats for sure. I find myself giggling and laughing again. Which is good cause that is who i am and lately i havent been feeling like myself too much. But for some reason when i am around him it feels like i can be myself. Another good thing he said tonite was that he likes to be around me because i give him a good feeling, or that i give off good karma. I enjoy that, which means he will like to be around me, and i dont mind that one bit. So your probably thinking to yourself ohh no...Faye has found someone she will be dating in no time. Well not excally, He doesnt quite mesure up to my standards and i WONT lower them so he can fit in, even tho he is incedably easy to talk to and hansome!! :) ha ha... Anywase, i hope to see him on friday possibly. I really hope me continue to become good friends. SMILES>?
...the Journey...
Well at this stage in my journey i am having difficulty. My boss at work got mad at me today. He is a very agressive type person, at least in conflict. He didnt make me feel to good today. I actually sat at the pool side and cryed on and off for the afternoon. It was harsh. He treated me like i was Mat to be steped on. AH. i cant take that. My dad was like that and is liek that. He treats me like i am some little person that can just be walked over and that their feelings dont actually matter. WOW. i cant do that> its bad enough that if i want to go to the bathroom i have to call up and ask someone to come down and not always can someone. But to have me locked down in tha basement and all alone all day....then you yell at me. WOW> i cant do it. i am in awe. I dunno how much more i can take this job it is really hard on me emotionally physically and mentally. I feel worn out from doing nothing, but siting or walking around and watching the pool. Oh my i cant do it some times. Anwyase, pray for the job.
Oh ya, there is a fun guy who i meant the other nite...and i know what you are all thinking OHH AWWW>..but no he is a really cool guy he works at the pool and we got along instantly. I am to hang out with him sometime soon. Megs you would really like him...if you know what i mean. ha ha
PEACE>
time goes by
Wow! so alot has happened since i last really wrote on here but ohh wel time has just slipped by. Anywase, let me tell you about my relevlation from on saterday. Well i snowed alot here that past day and i wanted to just go outside and play in the snow and so i did. I went out and built two snowmen. But that wasnt all there was too it. As i woke up that day all i could think about was all this stuff i ahd to do and how i had been on the go for way too long lately. So i decided to push everything back one more day and just take a day to myself and be me. Well building the snow men was Gods way of showing me that if i dont have time to enjoy or do the small things in life how can i do the things God has called me too big or small. I am a person who will do the little things as well as the big things with high regard. I do all that i can to the best i can. Seeing as i do it not for me but i work as tho i am working for the Lord. So this week is my relax week. Where do the things i enjoy like just be. I am also getting a cold so this also modivates me to be in bed at a decent time and to look after myself. So i dont have much on my schedual and dont plan on doing too much more this week but i will do the things i need to or want to do. Like read and investigate this "relevation" God has given me for Stratford. Its cool.
So i learnt how to knit and i love it. My grandma taught me and i have since made 2 and a half scarfs in 3 weeks. It is a great activity for me to do while at the pool cause i can do it and still be watching the swimmers.
On sunday i went with my friend jonny to see his other friends from school and wow i love them. They were so fun and just what i needed to laugh and to remember who i truly am. Also, we had some prayer time and some shareing time which was soo good i loved it. I hope to stay friends with them. Also one of the gurls knew one of my friends from life teams Megs. it was weird. It proves to me again to be a small world.
As for my health is it going well . i went to see a natural path last week or the week before and well she did me well. I am feeling much better. But on the other hand my liver is hurting. BOO> it has hurt sinice i was in high school but it never hurt enough to get it lokked at. then when i was at the docs he pushed on it i almost kicked him. OH man. the pain was intense and i have to extra careful with things especially on my right rib cage. So no belly flops on concrete..ha ha ha....So i am taking supliments and thigs to make my body feel better and it seems to be working. The up side of that is that i am not polluting my body too. WHOOT WHOOT>
i better go its almost 7 and thats my bed time tonite, So later days.
